Wednesday, April 7, 2010

thanks for being supportive, dad

hah, just when i was looking forward to perform for the VIP's in may, Colours of Malaysia. one of the big BIG events in Malaysia, my dad just had to ruin the excitement. common, you already know how into dancing i am. and you just had to tackle me unexpectedly? it might be fun for you. but, me? it hurts more than 1000 stabs on my heart. i never felt this way before. let me tell you one thing, im growing up. and seriously, you didnt even had a chance to see me grow. too busy with work and the other things you had to do. i bet if i ask you whats my favorite colour, you wont even know. you dont even know how happy i was during rehearsals and practices for every event. dancing is actually something really REALLY important to me, cause at the end of the day, i know i've completed something in life. sure, architecture... its not even 100% my decision. i dont even believe in myself being in this course. i want to have a simple life without sleepless nights. i wanna be in that light for something people appreciate. you've only supported me in what you chose for me to do. im tired of this. i have my own life to control. you cant tell me what i can and cant do. i know you know whats best for me, but, i wanna take risks. its all in the proses in learning right? at this very moment, all i wanna do is CRY my HEART out. so, i guess. i btter get goin and just, well, move on. good bye abang azwar, abang eddie, kak ana and all the awesome choreographers. im obsessed with dancing FYI? its stupid! common sara, GET OVER IT! die obsession, DIE!! im tired and i gonna go cool my mind down. stupid dancing, stupid hobby, stupid life. all i wanted was for you to give me full support and tell me youre proud of me and also tell me how talented i am. but no... all you could say is im wasting my time. thanks a lot!!

a depressed sara

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